Looking Forward

Christ, I keep avoiding myself. Again I’ve left it days without posting anything. I think it’s incredibly obvious I’m still neglecting myself, probably because I’m still incredibly unhappy. Even though this post is called “Looking...

Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham

“Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham” is the title of a major Bollywood film, meaning “Sometimes happy, sometimes sad” and has about three instances of marriage in it. As per usual with Hindi films. Even though the plot has no parallels with my life, the title does, in all of...

It’s a nice day for a white wedding

At one FTM Brighton meeting many months ago, Fox (My Transsexual Summer) came along and spoke to us about his experience with the media, and how he was approached. He mentioned something about how weddings are such a big deal and that always stuck with me after the...

Swamped

Disappeared under aqueous bullshit, pulled under by weeds of despair. Swamped. That’s where I’ve been. Still inundated, but I’m trying to drag myself out now. Blogging is buoyancy. So much has happened. Most of it has happened inside of me. Tremendous invisible...

So to conclude… (Part 2.5 of 2)

This follows Part 1 and Part 2. There are so many things about this weekend and the conversations with my dad that have surprised me. I still can’t believe it. Dad is okay with it. HE’S OKAY WITH IT. OH GOD HE’S OKAY WITH IT. Nothing about the queer capital of England...

“On a scale of 1 to 10…” (Part 2 of 2)

I couldn’t even keep a WordPress promise. I’m a day too late; my sincere apologies. In all honesty, I’m still feeling very emotional and overwhelmed, and it’s affected my coursework and my physical health. And my mental health too, I guess. I spoke to my incredibly...